Pumpkin Face..

When i woke up today, i knew what i was going to see when i look into the mirror..puffy eyes and puffy cheeks..pumpkin face in other words! i knew it was coming because last night, when i went to bed, i tossed and turned, i just couldn't sleep at all..i got out of bed and snuck outside to the living room, i went to one of my favorite spots, a small lamp was on and the rest of the house was asleep..the perfect setting to sort my thoughts out and just stare into space without someone barging in every 5 seconds. The best word to describe the room is "tranquil", i love this word, it carries it's own meaning..simply saying it relaxes me. Anyhow..so i sat outside and started (or rather continued) thinking..two minutes later i burst out crying like nothing could stop me. i just cried on and on..i was worried i would wake them up, i like being alone at these times. a couple minutes later my eyes started puffing up and i knew what i was going to have to face in the morning! Most thing i'm thankful for is that i've got a day off today, so i don't have to go out! that wouldn't be too nice!!

Surprizingly, i woke up today all happy and laughing! i guess it was letting out all those stacked up emotions that helped :) The problem i have still exists..but at least i'm not feeling as bad as yesterday.

I also talked very briefly about it with a friend, i didn't want to go into detail because..well..i just didn't. But after talking a little i felt so much better..i'm glad..i just wish i could sit down with someone and spill out my heart..you just can't do that those days, can you?

I've got an exam tomorrow, and for the first time in, like, 3 years i'm feeling so neutral about my finals..like they're a stupid quiz or something..i don't know why, i guess it's just the pressure..

I've just watched a debate between muslims (arabs & non-arabs) and non-muslims about the issue of freedom of speech..i really enjoyed it so i added the video here, you can find it at the bottom of this page. the first one is only a clip from the whole thing, and the second is much longer, it's the whole debate. Hope you enjoy it like i did. However, i did feel that it could have been more effective; what i don't like is that they're focusing on tiny details at certain parts that just waste time. But nevertheless, i enjoyed watching it :) i love debates.

ok then..i'll go read some for tomorrows exam and God help me!

take care..